The idea of a group of friends who does everything together has always been alien to me.

This is a problem because I need to be with them while we laugh, together, so hard we're rolling on the floor. I need to be with them while I look at my feet and talk about what's hurting me. I need to be with them while they tell me their secrets, their passions, their regrets, their mistakes and how they learned from them. But I can't. And I don't know if I ever will.