Warning: this blog post involves discussion of genitalia traditionally categorized as "female," as well as descriptions of bodily functions.
Read MoreIt's officially been a year since I started this blog.
Read MoreAfterward I realized that I define my value in relation to how others value me -- that is, I don't consider myself to be intrinsically valuable.
Read MoreI deserve love on a fundamental level, because everyone does, and I deserve love because I have good qualities, but I'm scared that the bad qualities are outweighing the good -- that isn't even the only reason someone could have to not love me.
Read MoreWhen I was onstage, my brain was completely immersed in what I was doing.
Read MoreEvery time someone calls me "she," it feels like they just walked through my transparency.
Read More(because you don't just stop playing, get a piece of paper, and carefully lift the bug off your cello when you're in the middle of act 2 of an opera)
Read MoreLipslut wants me to be angry. I can't be. I don't have the energy.
Read MoreI know that no one my age knows what they're doing, but that doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to be scared.
Read MoreI'm trying something different this week.
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