To me, a mistake doesn't just feel like a mistake; it can make me feel wrong, like I'm not a person.
Read MoreStill, there are more reasons why I have to go to this audition than reasons to stay at home.
Read MoreMuch easier to keep bouncing from hotel to hotel, living out of a suitcase, not realizing that by attempting to stay away from giving my emotional baggage a permanent home, I have given it permanent impermanence; I have let it rest in the core of myself, and I've convinced myself that I can live like this, or that I won't be around long enough for it to matter.
Read MoreAfterward I realized that I define my value in relation to how others value me -- that is, I don't consider myself to be intrinsically valuable.
Read MoreI deserve love on a fundamental level, because everyone does, and I deserve love because I have good qualities, but I'm scared that the bad qualities are outweighing the good -- that isn't even the only reason someone could have to not love me.
Read MoreTrigger warning: self harm.
Read MoreI realize that I need to cry and I can't. This is a familiar feeling to me.
Read MoreWhen I was onstage, my brain was completely immersed in what I was doing.
Read MoreSpoilers for all three seasons of A Series of Unfortunate Events, as well as for the book series (duh).
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